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December 23rd, 2008
12:30 pm

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I hate to say it but I really hate this Season.It is a commercial nightmare that stresses me out and makes me want to hide.It has such an emphasis on gifts.I really have nothing to offer anyone.I really wish I did have something to offer to all I know,I wish I could bring comfort to all I see and esp. those I care about but I am barely paying my rent and electric.I do say this if you come to my door,Id be happy to cook and enjoy time together,but my abillity to do anything beyond that is impaired.this time of year enhances my already heavily depressed mind and feelings of inadequacy to be anything more than a drain on everything around me.I feel like the world would be a better place if I just left it.I feel very tired and ignored by God,my prayers still rise but arent listened too or they are easily ignored.All I want is to be secure but I havent felt secure in anything in many years.I tr4y to do for others in my limited ways but all I seem to hear for my efforts and trouble is how it wasnt good enough or adequate enough or gratitude that seems to hinge on the next thing I do for the party.I am tired of people with agendas for me to accomplish for them or the vampires who want to suck me dry.I just want to feel safe and loved and secure in the moment,but that seems to be as mythical as Santa Claus

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12:01 pm

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Its an impossibity but I gotta try......
If you are going to be in the neighborhood on Dec 24 or 25th Santa.Id like some Tide Laundry Detergent(The Big Bottle),money for my medical supplies(about $80 for my scripts and a few other things(Diapers(Abena X-plus Size Large),Strips,Pokers,etc....) and a copy of either Mortal Kombat Vs DC or Star Wars:The Force Unleashed.But the more important stuff is the detergent and medical stuff.I tried to be a good boy this year.
                                        
                           Steve

Current Location: Home
Current Mood: depressedChristmas sucks
Current Music: Woody Bitching

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December 17th, 2008
07:49 pm

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I Radio Heaven-Over The Rhine
My friend reminded me of this song,I am really feeling this song.

i radio heaven
i get mixed signals
i move the antenna
i switch the channels
i lie in this bed
my satellite dish
is there room in the universe
for one last wish
(i say)

do you read me
over
you wanna come
over

i guess i never told you
'bout this life i'm livin'
it's heaven versus hell
in a split decision
this secret religion is
the best that i've found
i radio heaven
when no one's around
(i say)
do you need me
over
you wanna come
over

this song is grinning
go on and undress it
it's just the beginning
go on and possess it
you're no longer a child now
don't let them molest it
the wound is deep
i'm just trying to confess it

the truth is i bleed you
when these frequencies cut me
i'm a slut with a mission
a singular vision
i radio heaven
i get mixed signals
i move the antenna
i switch the channels

i radio heaven
i get mixed signals
i move the antenna
i switch the channels
i lie in this bed
my satellite dish
is there room in the universe
for one last wish

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December 14th, 2008
11:16 pm

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Im trying to right I just dont have much to say,I feel really depressed and lonely.I really hate this season cause I really cant give that much.I get guilty if I go to parties and dont contribute and feel really horrible most of the time about it.

Current Location: home
Current Mood: depresseddepressed
Current Music: robot chicken

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December 2nd, 2008
01:25 am

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my x-box 360 is driving me nuts.The abillity to pit myself against the world of really talented people.It shows me what kind of talentless hack I am.I spent three or four hours having my ass handed to me by other players,playing Ultimate Mortal Kombat 3.I had my tale handed to me both by online players and the computer.I have been struggling and frustrated by almost every game I have played lately just because I have.I try very hard but get frustrated and insecure....but I never was good enough just ask my Dad!!

Current Location: home
Current Mood: frustratedfrustrated
Current Music: Ghost Town-Fun boy Three

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November 29th, 2008
12:51 pm

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The Life Experience Test

Overall, you have partaken in 124 out of 174 possible life experiences.
Your average life experience score is therefore 71%.


The average score is 50%, making your experiences more than 95% of the people who have taken this test.
The average for your age group (26-35) is 53%.

Broken down by category:
Art: 17/17 (100%)

Career & Work: 11/13 (85%)

Civics & Technology: 6/7 (86%)

Crime & Disarray: 10/11 (91%)

Education: 11/18 (61%)

Fashion: 10/15 (67%)

Fitness, Health and Sports: 3/7 (43%)

Life in General: 8/14 (57%)

Relationships: 8/14 (57%)

Religion & Politics: 4/4 (100%)

Social: 21/22 (95%)

Travel: 11/20 (55%)

Vices: 4/12 (33%)

 
Take the test and see how YOU compare

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12:05 pm

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Im here Im trying to write.Yesterday I saw Transporter 3 which was watchable and enjoyable.I also saw next avengers on demand this morning it was ok.I guess I have to watch football today.I like football but its not my total existence like it is my roommates.im just frustrated today.

Current Location: home
Current Mood: frustratedfrustrated
Current Music: Ga Tech Vs. Ga

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November 26th, 2008
09:00 am

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Its been a while since I posted,I fell kinda off the face of the earth for a bit.Ive missed you all alot and send special love to piper rhiannon for the halloween candy though my roommate took and ate most of it.Love goes to goosestep lion whom I havent been able to get ahold of,I miss you!!!!Love to Babylover4ever who is my favoritest person.Also to prairieberry whom I miss alot.Also love to mako,pene and spacey,mistress marie and missy I love y'all!!!!!

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November 23rd, 2008
12:47 am

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My computer is fixed but still needs a better OS.Im on X-box live now on my 360.Im tired and want to go to bed but i thought id say goodnight!!!

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October 15th, 2008
03:25 pm

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I want to start writing again,I need to get at least one of my guitars back I think the music is returning and the need to express myself and be heard.I need to find something to be inspired by,Im just not I really dont want to do anything because the options of what to do are piss poor right now.Getting out going to a show or something along those lines would be great for morale which id at an all time low at the moment.

Current Location: home
Current Mood: tiredtired
Current Music: light the fire again-The Supertones

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