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11:28 pm
[Link] | Hi IM tired and going to bed but Im also worried about goosestep hope hes ok!!!!!
Current Mood:  sleepy
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11:12 pm
[Link] | You've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with the ABC's of YOU. At the end, choose 26 people to be tagged. You have to tag me so really you just need 25 more people. If I tagged you, it's because I want to know more about you - but not in a creepy stalker kind of way.
(To do this, go to “notes” under tabs on your profile page, paste these instructions in the body of the note, type your ABC's of Me, tag 26 people (in the right hand corner of the app) then click publish.)
A - Age:32.9
B - Bed size: full
C - Chore you hate: DISHES!
D - Dog's name: no dog
E - Essential start your day item:Caffiene
F - Favorite color(s): Black and Blue
G - Gold or Silver: Silver
H - Height:6'7" (or really close...)
I - Instruments you play: Guitar, Badly
J - Job title:Jack ass for hire
K - Kid(s): None
L - Living arrangements: a small apartment
M - Mom's name: Margaret
N - Nicknames:Big Steve,Steve-O,Stevie
O - Overnight hospital stay: deviated septum,broken arm surgery,Several others but cant remember the names of the procedure
P - Pet Peeve: mean people,thieves
Q - Quote from a movie: 'We are the middle children of history...' (Fight Club)
R - Right or left handed: left handed
S - Siblings: Uno!
T - Time you wake up:3 or four hours after i go to bed
U- Underwear: Abena X-Plus
V - Vegetable you dislike: Green Beans...nasty
W - Workout style: Walking
X - X-rays you've had: Arm,leg,my junk
Y - Yesterday's best moments: going to sleep
Z - Zoo favorite:bears and funnel cakes
Current Location: home
Current Mood: tired
Current Music: Good eats
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09:44 am
[Link] | Im tired,very tired!!I havent had much time since I got my other job and Im always tired now.Im also sorry for neglecting this journal ill try to do better!!!!
Current Location: home
Current Mood: tired
Current Music: Stargate
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12:02 am
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Sometimes......
When trying to sell myself on various AB websites,my size works against me.People on alot of the sites like Aby.com or rupadded just seem to write me off without even getting to know me.I just wish I could find a mommy or daddy willing to look beyond my size and just look at my heart!!!!
Current Location: home
Current Mood: sad
Current Music: throw down with bobby flay!!!!
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10:16 pm
[Link] | people get the wrong idea about me on some AB sites
they dont understand what i want and need
they dont get the fact that i have very little interest in sex the fact that im still a virgin
that i just have a need to feel loved and supported
to feel like someone cares about me
ab is not about diaper changes or as much a physical need as it is a need to feel loved and secure
I just wanted to explain that
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11:28 pm
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12:30 pm
[Link] | I hate to say it but I really hate this Season.It is a commercial nightmare that stresses me out and makes me want to hide.It has such an emphasis on gifts.I really have nothing to offer anyone.I really wish I did have something to offer to all I know,I wish I could bring comfort to all I see and esp. those I care about but I am barely paying my rent and electric.I do say this if you come to my door,Id be happy to cook and enjoy time together,but my abillity to do anything beyond that is impaired.this time of year enhances my already heavily depressed mind and feelings of inadequacy to be anything more than a drain on everything around me.I feel like the world would be a better place if I just left it.I feel very tired and ignored by God,my prayers still rise but arent listened too or they are easily ignored.All I want is to be secure but I havent felt secure in anything in many years.I tr4y to do for others in my limited ways but all I seem to hear for my efforts and trouble is how it wasnt good enough or adequate enough or gratitude that seems to hinge on the next thing I do for the party.I am tired of people with agendas for me to accomplish for them or the vampires who want to suck me dry.I just want to feel safe and loved and secure in the moment,but that seems to be as mythical as Santa Claus
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12:01 pm
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Its an impossibity but I gotta try......
If you are going to be in the neighborhood on Dec 24 or 25th Santa.Id like some Tide Laundry Detergent(The Big Bottle),money for my medical supplies(about $80 for my scripts and a few other things(Diapers(Abena X-plus Size Large),Strips,Pokers,etc....) and a copy of either Mortal Kombat Vs DC or Star Wars:The Force Unleashed.But the more important stuff is the detergent and medical stuff.I tried to be a good boy this year.
Steve
Current Location: Home
Current Mood: Christmas sucks
Current Music: Woody Bitching
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07:49 pm
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I Radio Heaven-Over The Rhine
My friend reminded me of this song,I am really feeling this song.
i radio heaven
i get mixed signals
i move the antenna
i switch the channels
i lie in this bed
my satellite dish
is there room in the universe
for one last wish
(i say)
do you read me
over
you wanna come
over
i guess i never told you
'bout this life i'm livin'
it's heaven versus hell
in a split decision
this secret religion is
the best that i've found
i radio heaven
when no one's around
(i say)
do you need me
over
you wanna come
over
this song is grinning
go on and undress it
it's just the beginning
go on and possess it
you're no longer a child now
don't let them molest it
the wound is deep
i'm just trying to confess it
the truth is i bleed you
when these frequencies cut me
i'm a slut with a mission
a singular vision
i radio heaven
i get mixed signals
i move the antenna
i switch the channels
i radio heaven
i get mixed signals
i move the antenna
i switch the channels
i lie in this bed
my satellite dish
is there room in the universe
for one last wish
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11:16 pm
[Link] | Im trying to right I just dont have much to say,I feel really depressed and lonely.I really hate this season cause I really cant give that much.I get guilty if I go to parties and dont contribute and feel really horrible most of the time about it.
Current Location: home
Current Mood: depressed
Current Music: robot chicken
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01:25 am
[Link] | my x-box 360 is driving me nuts.The abillity to pit myself against the world of really talented people.It shows me what kind of talentless hack I am.I spent three or four hours having my ass handed to me by other players,playing Ultimate Mortal Kombat 3.I had my tale handed to me both by online players and the computer.I have been struggling and frustrated by almost every game I have played lately just because I have.I try very hard but get frustrated and insecure....but I never was good enough just ask my Dad!!
Current Location: home
Current Mood:  frustrated
Current Music: Ghost Town-Fun boy Three
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12:51 pm
[Link] | | | Overall, you have partaken in 124 out of 174 possible life experiences.
Your average life experience score is therefore 71%.
The average score is 50%, making your experiences more than 95% of the people who have taken this test.
The average for your age group (26-35) is 53%.
Broken down by category:
Art: 17/17 (100%)
Career & Work: 11/13 (85%)
Civics & Technology: 6/7 (86%)
Crime & Disarray: 10/11 (91%)
Education: 11/18 (61%)
Fashion: 10/15 (67%)
Fitness, Health and Sports: 3/7 (43%)
Life in General: 8/14 (57%)
Relationships: 8/14 (57%)
Religion & Politics: 4/4 (100%)
Social: 21/22 (95%)
Travel: 11/20 (55%)
Vices: 4/12 (33%)
| | | | Take the test and see how YOU compare |
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12:05 pm
[Link] | Im here Im trying to write.Yesterday I saw Transporter 3 which was watchable and enjoyable.I also saw next avengers on demand this morning it was ok.I guess I have to watch football today.I like football but its not my total existence like it is my roommates.im just frustrated today.
Current Location: home
Current Mood: frustrated
Current Music: Ga Tech Vs. Ga
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09:00 am
[Link] | Its been a while since I posted,I fell kinda off the face of the earth for a bit.Ive missed you all alot and send special love to piper rhiannon for the halloween candy though my roommate took and ate most of it.Love goes to goosestep lion whom I havent been able to get ahold of,I miss you!!!!Love to Babylover4ever who is my favoritest person.Also to prairieberry whom I miss alot.Also love to mako,pene and spacey,mistress marie and missy I love y'all!!!!!
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12:47 am
[Link] | My computer is fixed but still needs a better OS.Im on X-box live now on my 360.Im tired and want to go to bed but i thought id say goodnight!!!
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03:25 pm
[Link] | I want to start writing again,I need to get at least one of my guitars back I think the music is returning and the need to express myself and be heard.I need to find something to be inspired by,Im just not I really dont want to do anything because the options of what to do are piss poor right now.Getting out going to a show or something along those lines would be great for morale which id at an all time low at the moment.
Current Location: home
Current Mood: tired
Current Music: light the fire again-The Supertones
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11:58 am
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What im listening to this morning
1.Life Boat-Steve Taylor
2.Cherish the Ladies-David Russell
3.Hollow Life-korn
4.the boys are back-kiss
5.Three Stooges theme-rush
6.sam hall-johnny cash
7.Hello-Oasis
8.Mechanical Animals-Marilyn Manson
9.December-Collective soul
10.Fall In Love-Kenny Chesney
11.Stop the World(And Let Me Off)-Dwight Yoakam
12.Home Alone Main Theme-John Williams
13.alone together-The 77s
14.Right Back Where we started from-Maxine nightingale
15.Strong Hand Of Love-Daniel Amos
16.silver thread and golden needles-Dolly,Loretta,and emmy
17.Ripped Off Face-Uphill Battle
18.Serve The Servants-Nirvana
19.Poor Paddy-The Pogues
20.Beneath A Desert moon-Sting
Current Location: Home
Current Mood: sleepy
Current Music: Look at the list
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10:46 pm
[Link] | Anarchism, then, really stands for the liberation of the human mind from the dominion of religion; the liberation of the human body from the dominion of property; liberation from the shackles and restraint of government. Anarchism stands for a social order based on the free grouping of individuals for the purpose of producing real social wealth; an order that will guarantee to every human being free access to the earth and full enjoyment of the necessities of life, according to individual desires, tastes, and inclinations.
Emma Goldman
Anarchism and Other Essays
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06:57 pm
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What's Sexy About Your Name
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You are sexy because you are reserved. You keep most of your passion hidden.
In truth, you are a very sensual and sexual person. But you mostly keep this to yourself.
You are secretly very interested in sex and very open minded. You definitely have a wild side most people don't know about.
You are comfortable with every aspect of your sexuality... but you don't flaunt it.
When you're finally alone with someone you trust, it's like flipping a switch.
You're sexually savvy, exciting, adventurous, and carefree. No one would ever guess it!
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02:55 pm
[Link] | I Got A NEW APARTMENT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Current Mood:  pleased
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